Who’s helping you weather the storm?
After today, I’ve realized, my faith is no where near where I want it to be. The preacher talked about having faith that God will bring you through even the toughest of storms. I don’t have as much faith as I thought I did.
The preacher also talked of a friend having Hodgkins Lymphoma who spoke of this at a local high school. He talked about lying face down on the floor crying out to God to save his life and God asked him why? So, he answered that I have kids to raise and God said well I can raise your children. It actually brought tears to my eyes. My children are my life, it’s a fear of mine that I would not be here to see them grow up. It never occurred to me that if something DID happen to me that God would always take care of them.
We’re going through tough times right now, I am personally going through a very difficult time and as much as I try to give it all to God, I don’t. I feel as though I need some type of control and even that’s not working. I want to have that complete faith in God that He will and is taking care of me. That there are rough seas out there and He would be more than happy to take over and navigate me to calm waters… and realizing this makes me want to just give it to Him and to ask Him for His help. I don’t want to have this burden anymore.