I seem to ask myself this question daily. Then I ask myself is there really any answer? I mean does anyone really know who they are? Every day I ask myself what I am doing with my life and what I could be doing and what I really want to do. I just can’t get a simple answer. Could it be my Gemini rising? Maybe. Maybe not.
Today for example, I just discussed with my husband about joining the military next year. If I can’t figure out what I want to do at least I can be apart of something bigger than myself and get paid for it while I ponder what is it I really want for my life. I want to say it’s not because I am not satisfied in what I am currently doing, because I am not satisfied. I love being a mother, don’t get me wrong, but I really dislike despise being a stay at home mom. I’ve never been good at playing with little kids. I never really had much of a huge imagination. I don’t remember playing much as a child, I do remember reading for hours though.
So what is my path? What do I want to do with my life. Questions that should’ve been answered the first time around when I was going to school. Here I am still pondering, still meditating, still trying to decide what I want to be when I grow up.
There aren’t any easy answers, this I know. so I just gotta keep Truckin’